Broken~Hearts

2010-09-01T07:56:00.000-07:00

It been a long time i post le...
Now back to wdl... Quite not use to it...
Himm jus saw my sis save de msg at my com....
Quite sad found out y in the first place she will left le....
Wonder did anything bad happen to her tis 6mths...
Hais fucking sad now don nod y so luan....
CB la hate tis fucking world....
Jus hope to be with u only....

Love u always.

2010-08-25T06:30:00.000-07:00

25/08/2010

Today went to SAKURA to eat. Uncle Wise,MUM,SIS,BABY and Cassan..
Did not sleep for 2nights... Sian.... LOL...
Tmr got to go report le.

2010-08-24T17:55:00.000-07:00

i am back le haha...

2010-02-19T18:17:00.001-08:00

Quite some time nv post le.....
Himmm CNY soon going over le.... Now will be waiting for the day.....
Hais don nod wad will happen....
Life still go on.... Now we have been tgt for 1years plus le....
Things r still the same....
Love to u will nv change but pls don let anything happen....

Forever love to u cassan....

2010-02-10T23:02:00.000-08:00

Knn dame fuck up tis few days....
ccb check her phone on ytd andd the day before....
saw something strange..... She said she go JB... i let her go.....
Den when come back did not went home.... Went to a so call aunty hse stay....
At there she told me tat her hp no batt cant talk or sms.... In the end she can send 8 item to her phone.... Wtf is it.... Knn she said wad is her Piao Gei send....
Ccb wan to lie or bluff.... knn a guy will keep girly pic ma will listen to ar guan song ma.... CCB don nod wad the hell she is hidding from me la.....
Ytd also there is a cb kia keep calling her msg her.....
den when 1 of my friend msg me a short msg..... She at there give face wth.....
My fault is it... Knn u can talk to guy i cant msg my friend la...
I did not even reply k.... den wad u show face.....
Infront of me talk to guy msg guy leh... i got said anything ma....
Nb la don nod wad the hell is it la.... cb

Fuck up life......

2010-02-04T04:31:00.000-08:00

Been awhile nv post le....Got so much thing to siad yet do not nod how to put it in words....

Nvm let start wit my life.... Baby I don nod weather how long more i can post....

I will not leave u anymore... I promise u i will not be the old Raymond tat u hate....

I will cherish u from now... Every sec at spend wit u i will always rmb....

Sry i cos so much trouble for u.... Hope u will forgive me.....I am really SRY....

I jus want to siad thxs alot... No matter wad happen u r still wit me...

I really very touch... My heart is always wit u... I nod in the past i treat u no good...

Hope now tat i still got the chance to treat u better...

I promise u once i have save up the money..I will give u a big surprise....

I am so sry tat wad happen ytd night....

Now de me is feeling so down and remosful..... I hope tat u wont blame me....

Thousand of words i wan to said but i nod u alwasy hope to hear me said it....

I LOVE YOU WIFEY> Cassan... 10022009 i will always rmb tis date....

I will not let anything happen to u... I will try my very best to protect u.....

Dote on u... And give u everything tat is a happy life and not a sad life....

Baby Wifey from today 4Feb 09 08.22pm if u saw tis post....

I jus wan to siad for u i will change and i will listen to u...Wont let u always worry abt me le.... Sometime when i think back of the past i really hate myself.... I hate for who i am....

I hate y i will nv listen to u... Y i will scold u....Sry Sry Sry Sry Sry Sry...

I jus nod how to said Sry to u now.... I love u....Pls belive me from now on...

I will no longer be the Hongster....

I will jus always rmb in my life there are 1 ppl in my life tat make me listen and change for them. She is > Cassan (My Wifey)

Last of all wifey i jus wan said sry.....

2010-01-23T18:06:00.000-08:00

Currently working at Aalst Chocolate Company....
Wa although the pay was good but it a tough job..... Now feel like my hand r not mine....
Been quarrling wit her.... Hais don nod y also.... Maybe is don like the way she show her attidude.
Now resting at home ltr 8pm mus go work le.... Another tired day for me......

2010-01-16T23:04:00.000-08:00

back to lonely de world.... being hurt again... evrything is lies....
wad evrer thing is lies and lies.... nth is ever truth...
wtf i am talking... siao liao lol.... since no one cherish me den wad for i think so much.... Np at all... Jus wanted the big sea to taake me away....
Nth to feel rrite now... ended le... i thought u will keep urr promise to be with me forever... Now den i nod tat there is no forever....
Nth at all all is lie de..... Promise are ment to be broken... now den i nod....
Sad Sad Sad Sad Sad

16/01/2010

2010-01-13T12:10:00.000-08:00

wad more u wan to said....
Everyone nod u went for opertation.... and i don nod at all....
WTH... wad u take me as... since u so like to hong and hide thing from me den nvm k....
Hate LIERS

2010-01-13T03:22:00.000-08:00

Hais sad sad... Today wifey when to hospital....
Nv even told me lor...
Hais hope she recover soon....

2010-01-13T00:09:00.000-08:00

Wifey i miss u so much....
Y u mus be grounded at tis time... Hais sad....
Hope u can faster come back to my side....
Sadness feeling for now....
Did not eat much now adays....

2010-01-08T10:02:00.000-08:00

Wow so long nv post le.... Here the laters pic of us....

Today quarrel inside MRT... Wow is like so many ppl looking....

Now cant slp... Hais life with u.... so sian,,,,

Wanna hug u slp....

2009-12-31T22:52:00.000-08:00

Wow time fly past so fast lor..... With out counting how many time we broke up....

It was actually going to our 11 mth le... Soon 1year le....

Haha ytd we went to celebrate our new year at Marina Bay...

At there was like all singaporen was almost there lor...

Haha watch a 8 min plus fire work...

After the fire works... We was like rushing here and there and squessing through the crowd....

We was finding Toilet,Bus Stop,Mrt station....

Reach woodlands at 2plus going 3.... So went to eat and slack till morning den came home....

Wa was so tired... Haha....

As for my new year wish....

1.I wan my family to be healtly and no sickness...

2.I can find a part time job....

3.Go chiong before i go NS.

4.Be with my girl (CASSAN)

Lastly..... I wan to be happy tgt wit her....

2009-12-30T14:51:00.000-08:00

so long nv post le...
so much thing happen... went to hospital for operation on 16 december... den after tat went AMK..
Wa so tired lor... Got so much to said yet don nod wad to post....
Wanna nod wad i do at AMK. Pls go to hoddermelvn.mutiply.com at yahoo can find the web...
Lol

Gtg bb

2009-12-19T13:06:00.000-08:00

Hais so much thing have happen in my life.... Been kind of stress now....
Mum have go in to hospital... Dad wanted to ask mum to help her rent a house....
Hais wadd i should do... Can someone teach me ma.....
Soon my sin tua going to do Da Ri Zi le.....
Hais.... Jus came back from operation... Den so much thing happen....
Hais Stress Stress...

=( =(

2009-12-13T10:58:00.000-08:00

Sad sad sad.... Hais evrything in my life seem to be wrong....
Wtf lor... i not mirror le i not invisiable..... Don take me as i am not there can ma....
Wth is all tis.... Wad u treat me as...
Can u ans me if i will to like tis treat u ma....

hais sad

2009-12-12T21:06:00.000-08:00

Wtf is all tis thing.... I really don nod wad to said to him le.....

Xavier ar... In the past u nod how to tell me xiang kai le....

Now le is who Xiang Bu Kai.... Y u wan to do all tis...

Thing will nv always be cover up de.... Y u choose to be like me.....

Nod how to push ppl up the steps but don nod how to learn to to pull urself up....

Y mus wait till thing happen..... Now i ask u la got who is really concern about ur thing....

U name out lor.... I can said is tat there is not much..... Y u tat day pull me back home....

Y u tat day will ask me talk nicly to my mother but yet wad u did to ur mother....

U almost wanted to beat her up... Do u realise.... U think wad is cool la beat her up.....

No matter wad she is ur mother not ur maid le..... Y when i choose to listen yet u choose to hide...

From ur mother there i heard alot of ur thing in tis few weeks tat u r not wit me.....

Wad u do is wad i been doing in the very past.... Can u change.... Can u understandd who is true and who is not ma.....

Really i don wish to see u end up in RTC or wad ever jail.... But thing r already too late le....

Now is only ur mum can decide ur fate..... Weather she wan to put u in or not..... I hope tat those who nod who xaiver is and also take him as a good friend or brother... Pls can someone tell his mum to give up the ideal of putting him in ma.... Jus anyone who nod his mum or been staying at his house before.... Jus go and vist her mum and u will nod everything.....

I have put my heart to ask ur mum give up the ideal le will help or not i don nod.... But i belie tat there will always be hope if someone try out.... but if no one try out den there will always be no hope.... It will jus make thing nv move on....

Jus to end up... Xavier no matter wad or where u r.... if u got chance to saw my tis post....

I wan u rmb tat tis is wad i said... "ONCE A BROTHER TO ME ALWAYS A BROTHER TO ME"

2009-12-10T23:21:00.000-08:00

wow so long nv post le....
Hais so many thing happen...
All my bro is like leaving le... Xavier is gone... he got caught le....
Hais.... I now dame hate lier....
Make up thing and also said fake thing to me....
Wth ytd jus have so many thing to do....
Settle some prsonal thing.....
Hais now so tired....

k gtg...

2009-12-06T00:34:00.000-08:00

Ha Ha was so cold ytd night... Mus be guessing where am i....

Haha i like the view lor... So nice.... Lol...

Himm will be going often.... Sian ar... Now no wrk...

Only some time work part time job.... Very tired....

Hais.... Wonder wad to do.....

Take care... <3

2009-11-29T09:06:00.001-08:00

So bored whole day stay at home....

Nth much to do keep play audi....

Now got fam le..... haha...

so happy....

Quarrel wit her today and ytd....

Dk la when ever i askher thing she jus said dk or wad....

Like today whole day don wan msg me....

Knn den msg her she reply wit attidude....

dk la....

2009-11-26T00:46:00.000-08:00

See all tis is my nephew de pic...

Dose he look cute?

Haha Lol

Take tis pic after i done my hair de....

Lol it like so long bt still curly lor....

Haha hope to make it stright....

Nth much to said tis few days nth much to do....

Run here and there for my camp thing....

Now got meet up more of my brothers le....

2009-11-19T09:35:00.000-08:00

Been some time nv post le....

So here the update of my life.... Currently band from works for 2 weeks....
Erm left 2 more days den can go back work...
So tis few days stay home if not jiu go amk find some friends....
Nth much for me to do also.... Sian.... Wan faster go back work...
If not i got no money pay my bills..... Hais....
Line get cut off le now using prepaid... So sian lor...
Some time will went to wifey work place fetch her.... But as i not working so won't be going often..
Now stay home de me is like i am being left out.... Got nth much to do....
Haiss... Jus hope i can go back work ba at least no nid think so much for the coming days....
Till now still scared of the operation on the 16 December.... Hais....
Dk wad to do on that day.... Hope it will jus go over asap....

K tat all bt my life... gtg...
TcTc... Rmb to tag me guys if u saw my post..

^^

2009-11-15T11:34:00.000-08:00

Y when i choose to trust u and u wanted to hide....

I don understand it.... Is it tat u still don wan to trust me.... YYY?

It meake me real sad when i saw it... I din nod u will still contact him plus u said is job....

And it not.... When i heard it i should have nod... After a short msg of ur wrking time u recive a call....

U said tat is a job call but when i found out it not... My hearts hurt... He call and y can't u said...

Is it u r hidding sth... nvm i will make msyelf to trust u as i nod tat in a reletionship ther have to be trust....

No trust there will be no happiness... Hope u will not hide anymore...

2009-11-12T00:18:00.000-08:00

Today wake up at 2plus... wa last night watch a show call the gruge 3... Si Be Scary...
But one of the ghot is cute in some way... LOL... the boy lor whole body white.....
When it nv open his mouth he is cute.... But when he open becareful of how he scream....
It may scared u to death... And rmb if u r watching wit ur friends or wad ever....
Pls ask them remove thier make up or wad ever ideals to scared u... Cos it real scary....

Back to my life.... As normal din went out today... stay home.... Nth to do....
No one at my hse today.... So went back to stay in my room to use com lor... so sian and bored...
Hais Sad....

Gtg BB

2009-11-10T13:07:00.000-08:00

Lol so late le i not yet slp.... Nth to do ma.... Yeah my audi tis time nv use hack....
I can lvl up le.... Haha so good.... Now de me not wrking tis few days cos no work time given....
Hais hope to go wrk asap... I at hme wan rot to death le.... At least wen i go wrk i got thing do....
At home so sian..... No where to go... Sad....

Now going to slp soon tis few days head so pain don nod y... at night jus vomit blood...
Dk y will like tis... Sad ar.. but i not wry la... cos last time already have le....

TcTc

2009-11-09T08:33:00.001-08:00

Hais sad ar.... Wondering y i nv post for 2ddays rite.... Cos feeling very luan....
Now so sad don nod wad i should do... Jus wanted to see or talk the last words....
Hais now jus nod sth is tat i can't go in more deeper le...
The more i go in the more i feel hurt hais sad.....

Hope to go back to normal life...

2009-11-07T23:02:00.001-08:00

Today wake up at 2plus..... Wa ytd nite so nice to slp... din wake up at all till morning......
Now den post.... went to slack outside ytd...... Talk cock sing song... and do many thing....
(LOL) Now feel so relax le.....
Ltr not sure going where.... Still planing where to go now.....
Erm see lor maybe Sentosa or Zoo if not jiu go shopping......

Yawn Yawn wanted to slp soon.... (LOL)

2009-11-05T12:23:00.001-08:00

Spend my day at home today.... Meet up friends....
At my hse slack and also ton..... Wa 4plus le nv slp yet haha... (LOL)
SIAN SIAN>>>

2009-11-05T03:39:00.000-08:00

Sad Sad... All said wan come down find me....
In the end all nv come.... Wth sian.... Knn ltr go down blk 19 drink....
Hais sad... feel so stress.... Knn....

Hais... Sad ar... dame sian.... Knn.... Feel so dead now..... Hais stress jus settle one prob...
Dk i did is rite or wrong.... Hais don care.... Sad.... Now stress till head pain....
Ytd jus drink beer and came back....

SADNESS FELLING NO ONE CARE

2009-11-04T14:11:00.000-08:00

Went bike at 1plus went to 325.... Fetch Monkey....
Went to 511.... See his gf.... After tat i send him home....
So sian....
At 3 plus Micheal call and said got tai ji....
After tat went there le in the end was jus small problem... WTH...
So went home..... Cassan msg me at 4plus saidd wan come find me...
I was so shock lor thought she got bf le... Lol...
REach at 5plus... so tired now den update blog....

Gtg slp le nite...

2009-11-03T07:31:00.001-08:00

Hais wad a day today....
Went to bugis at 3plus.... Brought a TU TU for my Sin Zai...
Hope he like it cos i spend $3 to buy it (lol)......
After tat went to buy a pendent.... Cost $6....
So nth to do and went to search for Zhong Tan Yuan Shuai de Shen Xiang....
Wa search for so many place like Rocher Street, Fu Lu Shou Shopping Centre,Bugis street...
Wa it was so tired but as chinese there is a saying.... Huang Tian Bu Fu You Xin Re....
At a shop beside Guan Yin Miao there we found one.... It cost $30....
In the end we brought it.....

After tat went to AMK to find ah gong.... He told us sth.... Haha.... Den at there learn to play Hua Sho.... tat the day i spend....

Tc

2009-11-02T12:35:00.000-08:00

Sad sad sad.... Wtf lor..... Cb hais i rally dame fuck up....
knn la dk la..... Nbcb.... y ppl wan like tat treat me... Knn nvm de lor...
Fine de... Since wan like tat treat me i go will go to my lonely world back and let no one know me and wad i thinking tat all....
Is so simple.....

Went bike rounding..... Go to 888.... 842.... 888 and back to it place....
So sian how i wish tat bike was mine....
Hais no choice la need save money le......

2009-11-02T11:14:00.000-08:00

Today was so tired... Hais wrk for 8hrs...
Standing and serving.....
Wth a stupid india guy really is very KNN nod y.?
Cos he fucker name cann kana..... Kana sai la/.... haha ^^
Went home at 2plus.... wa so tired.....
Lucky tmr not wrking... till friday.....
Ytd went to sin tua.... Wa it was like so bored and almost kana SaBo....

Did nth much at there... so take the song come back and learn lor....
At night we sit at my living room learing some stuff tat is a mi mi tat can't be told....
Ps ar for those guy who wan nod.....

Haha maybe tat all ba..... Tc...

2009-10-29T23:03:00.000-07:00

Last 3 days..... Lazy too post.... Was so busy..... Went to checkup at CMPB.
WTH the officer there so lao lan..... Nb wanted to beat him up lor....
Ytd wake up at 8 went to there check.... They said wad my heart is weak.... Need go scan....
Hais today also wake up very early..... Go check again..... Hais cb dame sian.....
Next week nid to go check my eye..... Hope will no nid wake up so early....

2009-10-27T11:28:00.000-07:00

wake up at 2 plus today..... at home chiong audi till 4 went to bath.....
So sian and tired.... need to go work again....
Hais wth lor at there wrk start at 6.... In the end cannot eat..... fuck la....
Don nod is wad job at all...... Hais
Came home at 12 plus....

Tired le bye bye.....

2009-10-25T17:56:00.000-07:00

Wake up at 7am....
Nth much so wake her up.... send her home le dden reach home and bath....
Hais sian ltr wrking le.... So nth to do so went to view her blog.....
Don view better view le more du lan....
Hais nnvm.... Don nod wad am i saying la....

Bye Bye.....

2009-10-25T05:36:00.000-07:00

Wake up at 3 plus today.... Msg cassan ask her wan meet go eat ma.....
Went to eat KFC..... after tat came my hse we play audi...
Before tat was like a mad ppl cycle here and there.....
After tat went to marsiling to pei Xavier buy his wrk pants and shoe.....
Tmr start wrk le.... Hais also dk wad to do tmr.... Hope is a easy job ba.....

Take care.....

2009-10-24T02:45:00.000-07:00

Hais sian went out today..... Slack at 326 kopi diam......
Ah Ben came out le... But get charge to grace heaven hostel..... After tat went to find Kai Wen....
After tat went to cwp to slack and play games..... Hais sad..... Nth much in life.... Went home at 5plus..... So sad and sian nth for me to do.....

LOLOLOL BORED....

2009-10-22T11:15:00.000-07:00

Went to 605 to meet up Winnie and Hui kok... Slack at rc awhile so bored....

So went to 888 to eat... It xavier treat again.... Haha eat the wu xiang den also at there we are like idoits....

At there act quarrel haha... lol.....

Nth much to do ma.... after that went to Hui Kok there de playground slack wor.....

Hais nth much at there listen to song... And heard them at there tok cock.....

Haha went home at 1am....

2009-10-22T02:01:00.000-07:00

Today heard tat cassan went in to hospital hope she will recover soon ba....
Did not went out today as i am feeling tired.....
Nth much to do now adays.... Hais 12/12/09 i maybe not tat free to blog le....
Need go ns le.... Hais i hate NS.... But no choice la..... Still need to go.....
Hais ltr maybe find place to go or slack ba.....

Sian Sian Sian